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Starile de visare si anxietate nu sunt putine
Si sunt ca un ocean tulburat, in adancuri, dar cu valuri line,
Care se revarsa timid peste tarmuri, cautandu-te,
Insa se-ntorc mereu in larg, despartindu-ne.
E un infinit de diferente inte noi,
Iar cand cred ca te am, iarasi vin ploi.
Si parca nu-mi spala nici macar un pacat,
Dintre toate cele pe care inca nu le-am uitat.
Macar de ar ploua marunt a uitare,
Sa simt usor cum nimic nu mai doare...
Sa fiu rece si nemiscata in tot,
Sa prind un mic firicel de noroc,
Sa pot fi libera sa ma intorc...
Sa ma intorc la mine iar si iar,
Intr-un loc in care, macar pentru o zi, sa pot sa dispar.
Sa zbor departe, in rosiaticul vazduh de la apus,
Iar cand ma-ntorc, sa te gasesc macar intredeschis.
Sa-mi lasi o portita de suflet crapata,
Unde sa ma pot adaposti, ca altadata!

Keep it real! :)

     E o candoare si o finete, la oamenii sinceri, pe care nu ai cum sa te superi, indiferent cu ce adevar te "lovesc" peste orgoliu. Azi am fost palmuita cu o realitate, care poate nu mi-ar fi placut, daca m-as fi privit doar pe mine si situatia mea actuala. In imaginea de ansamblu, insa, decizia unui om de a face ceea ce e corect, in ciuda tuturor asteptarilor, mi-a luminat seara.
In adevar sau provocare, adevarata provocare este sa fii sincer cu tine insuti si cu ceilalti. Acest om a reusit. Nu s-a angrenat in jocuri meschine, nu a "jucat" pe nimeni. Asa ca, dragul meu om, te respect pentru faptul ca mi-ai respectat suficient de mult existenta, incat sa fii sincer! Te respect, pentru toate zambetele pe care mi le-ai daruit. Te respect pentru faptul ca incerci sa faci ceea ce este corect. Te respect pentru ca inca nu ai uitat ca in viata trebuie sa lupti, pentru oamenii pe care ii iubesti.
     Pentru mine, faptul ca inca mai gasesc oameni, in toata mocirla asta de masti, este mai important decat orice alta realizare. Parca nu te mai simti atat de singur, chiar daca acesti oameni au drumuri separate. Ma bucur sa ii descopar...ma bucur sa stiu ca respira, ca traiesc, ca incearca sa faca ceea ce e corect, ca sunt sinceri, in ciuda asteptarilor si castigurilor pasagere pe care le-ar putea avea din amagiri. Cu curaj, inainte, dragii mei! Ma bucur ca existati! :)
    In fapt, nu am pierdut nimic, dimpotriva! Am castigat un sentiment de respect si caldura, fata de un OM. Daca citesti vreodata ce am scris aici, afla, te rog, ca nu m-ai suparat cu nimic, niciodata, ci m-ai castigat de partea ta, iremediabil si irevocabil. Sunt mandra de tine, no matter what! Keep it real! You're one of the great ones!!!! :)

Bad timing

Nu cred ca marea majoritate a vietii a unora dintre noi, se mai poate pune pe seama "ghinionului"...Incep sa cred ca nimeni nu mai e vinovat de nimic...nu e o conspiratie universala, nu e ghinion, nu mai sunt nici macar alegeri proaste, nici oameni nepotriviti....e doar.... bad timing, in toate, de parca, in momentul "furtunii", toate scenele par a fi rupte dintr-o crunta comedie neagra. Dar e ok...Hei, as long as we're still breathing, we have to keep on fighting, hoping, for brighter times. Hai, sa ne mai fie si bine (macar un pic asa, ca sa mai avem macar un mic firicel bun de care sa ne agatam, macar pentru o vreme). Sa vina vara peste tot(i), cu caldura, lumina & all that wonderful bullshit! E musai! :) 

Still searching?

There are no gates, doors or search...There is nothingness. There is no getting somewhere. There is only an emptiness from where you can go everywhere freely. It's a freedom that comes with the responsibility of renouncing the huge ego of separateness. The renunciation of separation's conflict. In order to get to others you have to go within. But the biggest mistake we're doing when we try to go deep within, is the search of the self, the wandering to the shallow depths of the ego, whereas “within” is letting go of the ego so that there's room to get everywhere. Only then, the search disappears. When the ego is annihilated, only for a moment, there's the key to understanding effortlessly that there is no need for the struggle. Everything is already there, to be discovered or unraveled. Only the struggle of the self to separate itself, keeps us blocked into that which we think of being our own internal world. But the magic is momentary when we perceive our internal world as magical, only through our eyes, while magic is already everywhere and in everyone. You are everyone and everything. Bun only when YOU becomes NO ONE, YOU can become EVERYONE and EVERYTHING. And only when we realize that we are everything, without doing nothing, but just being and observing, that's when living begins, that's when magic happens outside too. Because inside becomes outside and vice-versa. We are beyond inside – outside separation, beyond good and evil etiquette, beyond materiel, beyond words, beyond suffering or pleasure...we are joy in just being, in just looking at the stars, in just looking into eachother's eyes seeing our souls reflected in that which we think is the other. We are the others...we are the ants, we are the sorrow and we are the joy, the comfort, the pain, the all and the nothingness, the fulfillment in emptiness.

I am joy, I am you! But you are not you and I am not me, until we realize that you are me, I am you and that's what bliss is. It is not to be searched for or attained. It is here, there, nowhere and everywhere. It is in every NOW, that can only feel good or bad only when it is lived or experienced, nor analyzed and compared to that which is no longer present or that which could be, therefor – an illusion.   

ALL YOU PARASITES, GTFO OF MY WAY!!!

I am disgusted by people who always complain about being bored or not having the latest iPhone model or other shallow bullshit, like the world (parents, boyfriends, acquaintances  etc) owe them something...OPEN YOUR EYES AND LIVE YOUR F*CKING LIFE!!! GET UP AND FIGHT FOR WHAT REALLY MATTERS! Take responsibility for the mess you've created and stop sucking everyone else's life with your chaotic shit! This goes to all the ungrateful and restless energetic vampires out there, that think you're only breathing to serve them and their pathetic moody requests...WELL, FUCK YOU, YOU COWARD PIECES OF SHIT! THERE! I SAID IT! FUCK YOU, YOU WORTHLESS PARASITES! STOP SUCKING THE FUCKING LIFE OUT OF HUMANS THAT ARE STRUGGLING  WITH THEIR OWN BATTLES, WITH YOUR STUPID REQUESTS OF SOMEONE ALWAYS HAVING TO WIPE YOUR LAZY ASSES! WIPE YOUR OWN FUCKING ASSHOLE OR GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY!!! Let's be clear. I'm always empathic, help those in need and fight for others, as much as I'm fighting for myself. BUT I'M NOT HERE TO TAKE SHIT FROM SPOILED STUPID BRATS, to always clean like a slave after everyone else;s mess, to be an emotional/psychological garbage can of an idiotic human being for the same shit that they always create, no matter the help or support you give them. FUCK YOU and your poisoning, annoying and always negative presence and manipulative states!! GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER! I'M DONE LISTENING TO your own created BULLSHIT!!! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY!

cum?

Ma intreb oare de ce nu ma indragesti doar pentru cele mai vizibile calitati ?! Ma intreb cum de-mi luminezi cele mai obscure ganduri...Cum de ma vrei, nu in ciuda, ci pentru cele mai "stirbite" trasaturi ... Cum de ma suporti atat de nobil cand nici macar mie nu imi e drag de mine?! Cum imi aduci zambete, fara nici o stradanie, cand totul pare ca s-ar narui?!?! Cum de ma iubesti atat de frumos??? Cum?!?!  :)

"It has to be ok", I keep telling myself!

Lately, I've been confronted with that awkward moment when ceasing to exist is needed for everyone's sake, but you're responsible for a soul you've just adopted and have to keep on fighting with no weapons of whatsoever in a land that's a stranger to righteousness, common sense, love, decency or any sign of humanity, where sheep in disguise, stupidity, cowardliness and fake snakes are put on a pedestal, before anything that stands for truth, bravery or kindness...way to go, life! way to go!

Not such great times for me... None of us should come to say that: "Hey, I'm used to everyone not caring!"... But, it has to be ok, we keep saying to ourselves ...And we get to a point when we realize that we've been alone for too long, to stumble now, when we're  not really that all alone. Still, if we try to stay strong that doesn't mean that we don't need someone else to just be there, from time to time, at least, especially in the hardest of days...

Enough of this pushing aside bullshit, for today! I wish everyone a great sunday and a happy life (as much as it can be), while we're here! Take care of yourselves and the ones you love, while their still around...

Eternal Love to/for everyone!


Dani (for now)!